How long will this be? I miss you so much, I’m finding it difficult, to think about anything but you. I know (among other reasons) why.
I woke up, having had, dreamt about you.
You were a mix of two maybe three people, I found attractive. You of course being,
the primary one.
[we were intimately compatible, from beginning to end]
My dream the reminder, the reason, I can’t focus on anything else.
And why not? We were together, for fifteen years.
And your birthday just past in January.
Another next month. March.
The other reminder that, someone else I love and miss, is also out of my life.
Something, I never imagined.
All of me hurts, this time of year.
When I love,
I love, All of You.
I never wanted my fifteen year relationship to end. I would still be in it, had I not start loving myself. I appreciate the benefits of both, a relationship and being single.
It’ll be two years, the sixth of this month. The day I decided to engross myself, into something, that would take my mind off of you.
Two years later, I’m healthier (for the most part) confirming that, that
was the right decision.
But still, I miss you. And love you, as much as I did, the first time I met you.
I think of you, when I see couples.
And why wouldn’t this be?
It was thirty years ago, that we met.
[You didn’t know it, but it was then that, I had a crush on you]
We would meet again, in fifteen years.
And it wasn’t until today, I realized.
Fifteen years (two years ago) marked the anniversary of our “Involvement.”
And the ending of it.
I regret neither.
I just wish I could stop, thinking about you.
And wanting you.
I know it will take time.
I just hope it doesn’t take