Why I’m depressed… Right now.

As I try to shake this deep depression,

I realize what it is, that has me feeling this way. Right now.

I want my own spot/place.

I’ve never had my own.

A few apartments, roommates and now, shared housing.

There are many issues, that contributed to this instability.

My parents similar background, my depression, illnesses, affecting jobs, etc.

I’m blessed that I have housing.

But, everyone needs that, “I want to be alone, spot”]

I’m moving (grateful) from a place, with two housemates,

To another house,

With two housemates.

I’m depressed because,

today, I don’t feel like meeting two new housemates.

[Adapting]

I am depressed because,

No matter how many moments of optimism I have,

The state of this world,

Makes even more difficult, to be “Up.”

I see people I love, who worked all their lives, for everything they have. Still struggle.

And still don’t own, much.

I began ridding myself of things, the minute I saw, my dad’s needs.

He, has Always put our (mine, my sister, others) needs, before his.

And it’s why nothing, has value, over the love my dad has shown me.

As I have been doing and as I’m moving, I am ridding myself of more.

I believe there needs to be,

Other housing alternatives.

Affordable housing,

Isn’t affordable for me.

Many like me.

For now, I do what I can.

To anyone who interested:

I am converting my minivan into “My spot/space.”

I will be getting rid of a couple of seats.

I am getting help from a friend.

If interested in trade or participation in project,

Please contact me.

Author: My Life with mental illness

I have dealt with depression, most of my life and I've tried different antidepressant. With the right diagnosis and med mix, I have lost 40 pounds. And I am managing, my mental illnesses.

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