I wish I could turn my brain off, so it could rest.
That I could stop, thinking about the issues, I’m forced to think about, as a black person, in this, united states.
I wish I could tell my brain to calm down, it’s not urgent and that I don’t have to do everything, all at the same time.
I wish I knew why, I get emotional and cry, for no particular reason, like now.
Like earlier.
Why can’t I, not think about death?
And why does a long life, seems like a death sentence to me?
Why does getting well means, being a pharmaceutical guinea pig?
Why can’t I just be, Well?
Depression, My life with Mental illness 
Continuousness of brain activity bothered me, too. A rest seemed like such a grande idea.
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I wonder how many of us have wondered if we could just turn our brains off for a while. It’s terrible to be diseased to the extent that you don’t even know what life without this illness is like.
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Alice, Thank you for taking the time, to read, comment and empathize. God bless. Better days, for all of us. Yvette
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