Still I can’t

I have bills to be paid, a title to find and still, I can’t do it.

Every month, I say , I’ll mail my rent on time. And the first of the month comes. Then it’s the 6th, I say, I’ll take it in before the 10th (it’s a blessing, my landlord gives me that much time) to avoid, the late charge.

Next thing I know, it’s past the 10th.

This month, it was on Valentine’s day, that I mailed my rent!

Now as I write this, I’m feeling anxious. Because a bill I thought was paid, wasn’t and I have to talk to somebody. I don’t feel like talking to anyone. This, I should have done weeks ago.

Knowing there’s a late fee for that, that I’m 2 payments behind. Still, I can’t do, what I need to.

The RV, I brought 2,3 years ago. I brought during a manic high.

Note: Besides depression, I have Bipolar. I have periods of mania, which makes me behave, irrationally. Why my finances, are in disarray.

That was a $8,100, unnecessary purchase. The biggest manic.

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