Daily Prompt: Chaotic

via Daily Prompt: Chaotic

Chaotic

You know, I’ve never thought about it until now.

Chaotic, That’s how my thoughts are, when I’m manic!

It’s always been difficult, for me to express how I’m feeling.

Or find the right words, to say them.

When I’m exhausted or drained, I say, I’m tired.

When  I’m depressed, it varies.

But when I’m manic, my thoughts are all over the place!

Chaotic, describes it.

I didn’t realize I was exhibiting, this mania, until a friend of mine, noticed that I was talking really fast and a lot.

I’m not a talker!

It’s like, I have all these thoughts and I gotta get them all out, right now.

This is another reason, I don’t drive, when I’m having a manic episode.

I find it extremely difficult, to concentrate.

My dad, Was the first one to find my words for me.

Next, It would be my pastor.

We had gone up to Pennsylvania, to visit a members sister, who had had, her 100th birthday.

The trip back I was exhausted and it had to be on my face.

Because my pastor said to me

“It feels like someone pulled the plug, doesn’t it?”

And I was like, “Oh my god, that’s exactly how I feel!”

So thank you, for finding, yet another word, to express, what I feel.

Chaotic, That’s it!

Wholeheartedly, Yvette

 

Author: My Life with mental illness

I have dealt with depression, most of my life and I've tried different antidepressant. With the right diagnosis and med mix, I have lost 40 pounds. And I am managing, my mental illnesses.

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